Battle Scar

Get well

I know that you are sick today with flu and everything but to you that is just a minor sickness because you have major one to deal with.I don't know if you notice,ever since FIS even before you telling me about this problem I had actually asked some of my friends about you.Since then I started to give my care and all the help to you.Is not really much of a sympathy thingy but is also that I really like you at that time and I really wana help.I sincerely hope that your sickness can go away.No doubt by then you won't be needing me that much but seeing you healthy is all it matters.You have suffered a lot but I can't feel your pain because I'm not the one who is so much in your place.Seeing you sick and getting worst day by day hurts and worries me a lot. You are a very strong person and I admire that about you.You amazed me in many ways but I hoped that you don't have to go through all this. Sometimes I had actually hope if we knew each other way back then maybe you won't have to go through so much. More happiness can be written in your life, less regrets to be sad to be remembered.Remember I used to date a senior in my school, the one you laughed at me. Well, she used to have something similar to yours. I used to cry for her even my sister when she told me she was going to die. Then I met you. Boy was I shocked when I got to know another friend of mine having the same thing. I hope that you can lead a normal healthy life and enjoy what you used to be so passionate about. Yes, there are a few famous people in life like Nick Vujicic who was so determined and persevere in his life to keep going with a never giving up spirit.No doubt so, but I have never seen someone here right infront of me,someone close to me who amazed and touched me with whatever he is doing. I know people said about you being foolish and stuff for not getting treatment, I used to be one of them. Now, I respect the decision you make for this. I can see your determination and willingness to go through this for some certain reasons. It's really a big sacrifice.So, thank you. No matter what happens , I'll be there to support you. Little and limited may my strength be, but the spirit of supportiveness will always be there. GAMBATEH ~~~ !!!

Reflection

Stress in my course had lead me to be overly active in thinking even during sleep. Lately I have been having crazy bad nightmares. They were all so scary that when I woke up, my heart was pounding...my heart kept beating like a drum. All this lead me to wonder why can't I have a nice lovely dream which can me smile when I wake up then. I don't know if my wishes were heard but they came through this afternoon when I was having my usual afternoon nap.

It was a dream of you and me and it was all so happy that it seem so prefect and real to me.The dream was a little like how we first met. It was 2.34pm and we were on the street wandering around. Fate drew us together when we accidentally bumped into each other.I can't recall everything but since then we became really close just like how we first met. Everything started with the beginning of friendship but as time goes by we started to have feelings for each other.Somehow I don't know why, you sent me to another dimension...I think is because you wanted to change me or were you trying to seek for answer.It's too blurry now.The new dimension was like a portal to another world.There was an older man, I wasn't sure if it was you from another life but he had your personality who seem to be really patient dealing with me.I started to doubt if he was you.Things happened too fast,even before I got to find out who he was actually, I had came back from the dimension and returned back to where everything first started.I looked at my watch and it was 2.34pm. I was excited because that time meant so much to me.I wanted to meet you,so I ran all over the street searching for you.They were crowds everywhere that blocked my pathway when I was in the middle desperately searching for you.Out of the sudden, a few people came up and talk to me.It was really nuisance and frustrating.I waited while talking to the crowd,but you were nowhere to be seen.My hopes went down, head went low.A familiar voice was heard among the crowd then.I looked up and I saw the same you.I was so happy that I pushed everyone away. I came right infront of you,but I was worried that you don't recognise me because I was from another dimension.To my surprise,you smiled at me just like how you used to smile.I remembered what you said.You said what we had was true,that we really like each other.You picked me up and carry on your chest just like a toddler.I felt so secure being in your arms that I cried because I was so happy that I don't wanna leave you anymore.You then patted on my back saying,everything is okay now.You kept carrying me and went on walking.

I woke up after the dream ended.I thought it was reality because it seem so real.It had been so real.I don't know why,but tears started to shed down my cheeks instantly.By then did I realised how much you really meant to me if you were not there.Life wouldn't be the same then without you.